There’s a lot going on in my life right now. A lot of changes, a lot of hurt, a lot of soul searching, a lot of reflection, and a lot of healing to be done. But along with that comes finding peace, joy, love, friendship, and faith. I’m not going to sit here and explain every detail to the internet, because while sharing my life online is my job… remember you’re never required to share every ounce of your life with other people. You’re allowed to save your energy, words, and feeling for the sake of your own mental health.
So what’s my point? Well, I haven’t really got there yet. And honestly, I’m just writing and praying that God will give me the words that will help someone else who is struggling with who they are, their past, their unknown future, or what God is calling them to do in the current moment. OR maybe someone who is hurting because of the actions of someone else. Pain is very real, but it’s how to process it and grow from it that matters.
God always loves us and will always take us back. He will leave the 99 to find the one lost soul, and that doesn’t always mean much until you are that one. But I promise, when you are unsure of where to turn or what to do next… if you ask (and wait on his time to listen) then he will get you through it.
However, that leads me to my next point… us humans aren’t always so good at listening… especially when the answers aren’t what we want to hear. Sometimes we try to do the right thing and seek God, but still decide to do what we want in the end anyway. And while that obviously isn’t the right thing to do, we still have time to go back and re-begin our journey the right way.
He’s an “I don’t care how far you’ve run, just come home” kind of God
And that pretty much sums up how any of us should feel when we mess up, hurt someone, hurt ourselves, feel lost, or feel like we made the wrong decision. I don’t care if you haven’t prayed or thanked him in days, weeks, or years – if you wholeheartedly seek him wherever you’re at right now, you will find soon peace.
Please understand that we are ALWAYS welcomed back home with God, even when we think we’ve strayed too long or made unforgivable mistakes. And if someone ever tells you that you’ve gone too far for that, then let me tell you – they are lying through their teeth. The world may not always forgive us, but God truly does when we ask for it.
Then there is the opposite side of forgiveness – when we are asked to give it to others. And I’m here to tell you, even if the people whom you feel wronged aren’t sorry – forgive them anyway. NOT because they deserve it… none of us usually deserve forgiveness anyway. But because forgiving others and accepting the reality of a situation heals you more than it heals the other person. Carrying around anger, jealousy, malice, or sadness for very long will only damage our own souls. Ask God to help you remove it.
Forgiveness is not about forgetting what someone did. It’s about saying to God, “I give them and the situation to You because I know that You can handle it better than I can”
I’m NOT saying that all actions should be excused with no repercussions by any means. But what I am saying is that maybe it’s not OUR place to say what those repercussions are… and it’s probably none of our business in the first place.
Maybe we should just pray for others. Maybe we should just try our best to love others, or at the very least agree to disagree and peacefully move forward with our own lives.
“We don’t always understand God’s methods. His ways don’t always make sense to us, but we have to realize that God sees the big picture. Consider this possibility: you may be ready for what God has for you, but somebody else who is going to be involved is not ready yet. God might have to do work in another person or another situation before your prayer can be answered according to God’s will for your life. All the pieces have to come together for it to be God’s perfect time.
To live your best life now, you must learn to trust God’s timing. Let God do it His way. The answer will come, and it will always be right on time.”
And if your first instinct of reading this post is “I wonder what she’s going through” then you’ve completely missed my point. I’m growing, I’m learning, I’m trying to listen to what God wants me to do in the next steps of my life. “I trust the next chapter because I know the author.” And with all of my heart, I hope that you do the same.
“We are in constant battle, and grace is just as much our haven as it is our resolve to fight.
Grace cheers for you, roots for you, and recieves you again and again; with a direction and momentum that says you’re better than this.
Grace will confront sin like a surgeon’s tool and work through it to the messy end.
Grace does not excuse or absolve sin. It acknoledges the reality of our great and desperate need as sinners. It’s not merely comfort, but healing.
Grace is a cross, a substitution, an atonement, a victory over the grave – a handfull of gritty truths wrapped in flesh that breathed the air and dirt of this earth.
It’s a beautiful, wonderful, furious, unchanging, heart-stopping love that cannot be shaken no matter what.
Jesus; he is our rest, our fight”
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